Tomorrow morning 200+ women from across Canada will descend upon the Sheraton Hotel in Toronto for a two day Social Media conference, “She’s Connected”.

Two nights ago, I woke up in the middle of the night having what seemed at the time, a panic attack. I haven’t been able to regulate my temperature for almost a week now, so much so, that Peri-menopause crossed my mind. I just turned 39 last week. I’m not going through the “change of life”…. but I am nervous. Really, really, really nervous.

Not just because I’ll be sitting on a “Rockstars & Rising Stars” panel with the likes of Tracy Moore from CityTV and Christine Cushing from just about every cooking channel and show known to mankind… although, I may just sit and stare at their awesomeness!

It’s not because I’m speaking either. I regularly have speaking engagements, from small groups of a dozen or so to the biggest crowd to date, 1,500 congregants at a church in Durban, South Africa. I didn’t even sweat a single drop for that. I didn’t even have notes for that!

Sharing in front of 1,500 at Glenridge Church in South Africa

So why am I so nervous this time ’round? Why is it I feel like I can’t breath and my deodorant can’t keep up with me?!

It’s probably because at She’s Connected, the room will be filled with my peers. People in the social media world that I admire, look up to, and want to be more like. People who I know are better bloggers, more digitally connected and have bigger followings.

Maybe it’s because I’m still on this journey to discovering the full spectrum that the social media world has to offer. At times I fight the feelings that I have nothing to offer in this field because I’m relatively new to it. Although I’ve been blogging since 2006, I didn’t show up on “the scene” until 2010. I fight those feelings of inadequacy on a daily basis.

But I push through!

I can imagine what may never have come to be if I’d not climbed aboard that GO Train a year ago and not walked into the She’s Connected conference room. I had every opportunity to turn around and thought about it endlessly.

I’m glad I pushed through!

So if you’re nervous going to She’s Connected for the first time… you’re not alone ~ you’re in good … GREAT company.

p.s. I’ll bring an extra deodorant stick for you too!